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Sunday, November 23 Maybe i am a special need kidWhen i was young, i had feelings for non-living things like my bolsters, pillows and blankets. At night, i made sure "they" are not at one corner, but that i would try to touch all of "them" so that "they" would not "feel" left out. When i feel sad, and maybe experiencing some withdrawal symptoms (ha), i would put them altogether at one side, and i sleep at one corner without touching anyone of them. I often wonder why is this heart of mine as such. Now, I have to say goodbye to a car that is going to be scraped soon. Funny how sad i can be to saying goodbye to a car. I know it is very absurd to feel or even think this way, but i just cannot help it. Perhaps it is almost the same as saying goodbye to someone who is alive. Makes me want to "talk" to the car and thank it for so many things. I am weird. I will miss you eight six seven four. Heli Dont ask me why 5:21 PM |
Personal archives 2002.11 .: Thoughts :. I know i have to let you go.. Everyone tells me this is so... See, my life has stopped since You passed away Sometimes i can't bear it Even for one more day.. Thoughts of you consume me Every second of everyday I just want it back you know The way things used to be... In my life you held the key And now i have just your memory And though this is not enough for me This is how it has to be... I need to laugh again without feeling guilty You aren't here... I feel so alone & full of tear It's so terribly hard when all that's Left is tears... Mum, i wish you are here Just plainly listening to me... I promise to keep you safe Where you have always been of course In my heart, that's the place... |